I AM STARVING

My son was laying on the couch today in a pitiful pile of whine.  He hurt so bad.  His head, his stomach, he had dry lips, even thought he might throw up…he was a mess.  So we started talking through the reasons as to WHY he was all messed up.  There was one point that I simply could not believe he was not sick because he was being so lazy and whiny.  I was so convinced he was sick that I got him his pillow, comforter, and Pookie (don’t ask…he might not be happy with my sharing this information) and … Continue reading 

Emotional Overload

*Lots of chocolate may have been consumed in the last week along with powered sugar donuts. Please know that I am ok and will be just fine.  No need to worry…except for soon-to-be depleted availability of  chocolate.  You may want to grab your stashed chocolate as you read this because it may be the end to ability to find chocolate. Walking through a time that calls for great faith is hard enough.  There are great emotions.  For us right now, it seems like we are always waiting on something which causes a large emotional demand.  First for a call for an interview. … Continue reading 

My Beautiful Brokenness

The last few weeks have been pretty busy around my house.  We’re trying to figure out what summer with the kids at home looks like in July.  It seems each month has it’s own characteristics!  June was debrief and relax, July has been super busy cause we’re kinda bored with relaxing, and August…well, we will see!  In all this discovery time I also discovered that Earl V had taken up residence in my body.  Earl is the nasty dermoid tumor or ovarian cyst that I have gotten numerous times.  (Side note: I don’t dislike or hate anyone named Earl.  It’s … Continue reading 

Random Thoughts on a Busy Week

1. It’s hard to have a schedule and order my daily life when it keeps changing.  I need to find the constant at home instead of what happens outside of it. 2. Some of the things I can’t take with me into my future are hard to deal with because they are inside me.  Right now, God is dealing with my pride.  It’s the cousin to insecurity and sometimes they are hard to tell apart.  They have been apart of major life decisions from the time I was a kid and they have been a bad compass for me to … Continue reading 

Make a Life

I think I’ve finally figured out my obsession with the South.  Last night I watched a movie called “Finding Normal” and it kinda solidified my feelings.  I equate the South with Simplicity.  Now, don’t get me wrong…I’m not calling the South simple.  Movies portray the South as more laid back, easy going, and living the old American way of life.  Who doesn’t want that!  I kinda do a lot. The last few weeks of unemployment have been so awesome!  I had 5 people ask me on Sunday how I was liking being done and you know what?  I LOVE it. … Continue reading 

Obedient Actions=Peace

I’m sitting here a little stumped right now.  I’ve never been in this position before in my adult life.  This is the 1st time since I was 12-years-old that I haven’t had a job. I’m a worker who comes from a long line of workers.  We don’t tend to vacation the way other people vacation.  My parents tend to fill our vacations with an activity or adventure each day.  Please do not read that as a complaint…I’ve seen and done A LOT of wonderful things in my life.  We are on the go and accomplishing something all the time.  But … Continue reading